I had a thought: " i've graduated for 5 years and i still don't have an idea about what to do"
sometimes the scariest thing to me is admitting stuff to people. And yet, the strange thing is that once it gets said, it doesn't become such a big deal anymore, and then i notice that things in my life start to shift.
eg: I spend more money than I earn
what with facial, expensive derm products, manicures, IPL, shopping... I felt like I was going nowhere in life, and nowhere in growing my bank account. and the guilt/ shame about this was eating me on the inside. But once i said it out to someone, and i let it go about how bad i felt... i think things are starting to change and feel different.
Like how I feel more strongly about the things that aren't working in my life. That aren't serving me in the way i had hoped. And that now i am opening myself up to letting them go.
That i can dress how i want, be who i want, be answerable to only me, say what i want to whom i want when i want to. To stop feeling forced, terrorized or abused in any way. I did it for long enough and it's all in the past. Now is now and i can make a new decision of how i want to live now.
To end off.. Here's a li
Live life your way. Furiously.
Thanks for shaping me into who i am. I wouldn't be here, emotionally challenged and then grown, without you and all you bring with you. May you continue to shape the people who come into your contact.
