Chasing Dreams

I had a thought: " i've graduated for 5 years and i still don't have an idea about what to do"

sometimes the scariest thing to me is admitting stuff to people. And yet, the strange thing is that once it gets said, it doesn't become such a big deal anymore, and then i notice that things in my life start to shift.

eg: I spend more money than I earn
what with facial, expensive derm products, manicures, IPL, shopping... I felt like I was going nowhere in life, and nowhere in growing my bank account. and the guilt/ shame about this was eating me on the inside. But once i said it out to someone, and i let it go about how bad i felt... i think things are starting to change and feel different.

Like how I feel more strongly about the things that aren't working in my life. That aren't serving me in the way i had hoped. And that now i am opening myself up to letting them go.

That i can dress how i want, be who i want, be answerable to only me, say what i want to whom i want when i want to. To stop feeling forced, terrorized or abused in any way. I did it for long enough and it's all in the past. Now is now and i can make a new decision of how i want to live now.

To end off.. Here's a li

Live life your way. Furiously. 

Thanks for shaping me into who i am. I wouldn't be here, emotionally challenged and then grown, without you and all you bring with you. May you continue to shape the people who come into your contact. 

love yourself: honor your sexy body and have sex for the right reasons

Being sexy is a wonderful thing. It's great to be in touch with your body, exuding sexualness from being comfortable in the way you look. Who gets to define what being sexy is anyway. No matter what you look like, if you feel sexy then you are sexy. And when you feel good, no doubt guys are going to want a piece of you.

Because I have fallen trap to having sex for the wrong reasons, I admire my friends who honor their body and have the self love to say NO to sex.

If you are not in a committed relationship with him and are planning to get intimate for the following reasons, do think twice and check with your body if that is really what you want to do.

1. To feel loved

2. To feel sexy, hot, desirable and wanted

3. To keep the guy

4. To feel better about yourself

5. Afraid of saying no

If you don't feel 100% sure about getting physically intimate with a guy, it is probably not the right decision for you. Having sex for the reasons above, and any reason other than to further enhance emotional intimacy in your relationship, only leads to heartache. Know that you have the power to walk away from any situation and cause him physical pain if needed. Being true to what your heart tells you is more rewarding then leaving with regret and disappointment.

Self love comes from within. You will feel better when you love yourself instead of looking outside you for love. Looking for validation of how beautiful, gorgeous and sexy you are will never be as fulfilling as knowing that you are an amazing woman.