stay-at-home-preneur

What kind of -preneur are you ?

blogpreneur?
entrepreneur?
solopreneur?

All these terms got me thinking. What kind of preneur am I ?

Is it possible to be a Stay-At-Home-Preneur?

Traits i have that no one else does:

-Being able to stay at home for most of the day

Anyway, here's a picture of me dressing up to go out. The one time i dress up in a week, to meet my dearest friend

So there. OOTD. 

Immediate Buy Immediate Wear

Best thing about new clothes? 

The excitement of wearing them. 

Immediately buy immediately wear out the next day. 

I wore this to beerfest 2013. Decided to go in the afternoon and enjoy beer in the sun. Not sure if it was a good idea cos it was so freakin HOT. But i got to wear this cute pink outfit !! 

Got really excited by temporary tattoos. Thought I could make it into a tattoo sleeve but didn't really turn out that way. Left them on for about 4 days and then i decided that I missed seeing my arms.

Very into one colored outfits ! Sucker for bright colors haha

Good morning !

Early to bed, early to rise.
Been resistant to the thought of having a 'normal' day.
What is normal anyway?

start the day like a normal person? Who said so !!!!

But here i am, it's 7am.

Usually i snooze like crazy and then beat myself up about it. But today I tossed and turned and just couldn't continue sleeping.

Is it a sign?
Is there really a big change in my life after faster EFT?

Whoopie !

Chasing Dreams

I had a thought: " i've graduated for 5 years and i still don't have an idea about what to do"

sometimes the scariest thing to me is admitting stuff to people. And yet, the strange thing is that once it gets said, it doesn't become such a big deal anymore, and then i notice that things in my life start to shift.

eg: I spend more money than I earn
what with facial, expensive derm products, manicures, IPL, shopping... I felt like I was going nowhere in life, and nowhere in growing my bank account. and the guilt/ shame about this was eating me on the inside. But once i said it out to someone, and i let it go about how bad i felt... i think things are starting to change and feel different.

Like how I feel more strongly about the things that aren't working in my life. That aren't serving me in the way i had hoped. And that now i am opening myself up to letting them go.

That i can dress how i want, be who i want, be answerable to only me, say what i want to whom i want when i want to. To stop feeling forced, terrorized or abused in any way. I did it for long enough and it's all in the past. Now is now and i can make a new decision of how i want to live now.

To end off.. Here's a li

Live life your way. Furiously. 

Thanks for shaping me into who i am. I wouldn't be here, emotionally challenged and then grown, without you and all you bring with you. May you continue to shape the people who come into your contact. 

mongrels are loved too

almost shed tears in office watching this always so tempted to bring abandoned pets home i send them my love i know we are all doing our best and these animals are here to share a lesson with us. the outcome is of no importance. it is what we take away from the experience that matters.

sleeping time haywire

its no longer about how long i sleep. but what time i wake up??

what to do what to do...

insurance?
cabin crew???

i'm dropping hair :(

why does the future look so bleak

maybe its the test for someone who doesn't like to be lonely

i see the sense in the situation now

life changing love

maybe i was wrong to swallow all the hurtful things.
maybe i shouldn't have let you say what you did.
maybe i could stand up for myself more.
maybe.. so many maybes..

the fact is that you changed my life. turned me into someone different.
you will always be special to me.

with change comes confusion. identity. who am i? what have i become?
i no longer want to know. i'm just trying to survive.
release is better than suffering in silence. each bucket of tears help me regain sanity.

so much reminds me of you. i miss you most when i mop the floor and wash my fan.
it's so stupid. but the past is irreversible. though i would go back and do it differently.

universe shaking. you turned my world around.
thank you for being so caring, understanding, comforting and loving when you could.
i really love and appreciate everything that you did for me. you taught me so much.

you're not perfect. i'm not perfect.
i choose not to make the same mistakes. i'm sorry i choose me over you.

i know you will be alright. as bleak and dark as it seems now, i will reach a day of light again.

why

is this happening to me again.

thesamepatternknitwork

the days feel long, the nights.. longer
the waking is like being asleep and i'm in eternal slumber
this familiar place, the same junction i've seen,
i'm standing alone. lost. looking for my compass
where once was you, now a spirit, lost in between dimensions
with a veil we can't look across and physical space we can't traverse

laughless, the days pass with forced smiles

i really might give up after this. i really might crumble. i really might lose myself again.
i'm trying so hard to stay grounded. cut those wings and don't let me fly

i want the best for you

i want the best for you and i hope you want the best for me too
why limit someone else? out of fear that they will shine too brightly?

i allow myself to shine as brightly as i was born to be
i accept my gifts and skills
i have the right to be the best me
i have the right to be illogical to you
i have the right to make decisions for myself

who are you to limit or control me, either verbally or energetically.

i am an expansive being. i allow myself to expand everyday

i really don't want to make a fuss of this. i want things to get better. i want to feel more expansiveness, and energized to create more adventures together.

why bother

i do have thoughts of 'why do i even bother'
but where do they even come from ?
is this what it means to be 'jaded' ?

sometimes i really wonder what i am doing and what this all means. why does it feel like its so complicated when it is actually very simple. how did the mind get conditioned to respond in a certain way. how come i seem to be relearning how to look at things and how to respond to circumstances. is that the fun of life ?

why am i always so frustrated? something just isn't right.

i don't have to figure it all out at once
i am doing the best i can
i really want to feel better
it isn't all that bad
my life isn't hard at all
i am not enduring any real suffering
i am in control of my feelings

my only reality is in the current moment. the only time i can start to love who i am is now. i accept what i have created, my past and my present.

the rain is like tears

the sky knows the most apt times to release their load on the world. These cycles and rhythms coincide with my ebbs and flows, the ups and downs. Maybe i'm too in tune with the earth and what is happening.

ridiculousness

what am i doing to sabotage my relationships ?

i think i do still have psycho behaviour embedded in the depths of my brain programming. everything that has led to this can i please uncreate and destroy ?

the happiness of having permed hair is that my hair actually looks nicer in the morning when i wake up as compared to after i shower and blow dry haha. good reason to be lazy and not wash my hair lalala waiting for it to dry is such a pain !

yesterday's 55 dollar shopping spree at victoriajomo was a success ! didn't think it was possible to stuff 8 pieces of clothing in one small bag. the stretchability power of ziploc ! haha

thanks trixie and xiaoxuan for a fun day out ! we have to try and find artichoke the next time.

I dislike discouragers

Dislike feeling less than whole when we're like this
Dislike that my mood turns sour
Dislike that i don't function normally
Dislike that i have no dinner
Dislike dislike dislike

I'm feeling : frustrated, upset, moody
Music : mariah carey

article writing rant

why aren't the words flowing ?!?!
sticking to one thought and trying to be clearer.... grrr
YOU CAN DO IT ! it's frustrating but worth it !

attempt to act shu nu

tadah ! decided to go for it and get a perm !

hahaha here are the preliminary pictures taken right after the hairstylist was done. Took photos to join this Miss Jean Yip competition so my hair looks so unnatural (while trying to look natural).

front

felt too self conscious

side

back

couldn't stand the smell of the hairspray and wax or whatever he put in my hair. and it felt very oily and yet stiff at the same time so i quickly washed it out and now it looks more natural. likes*

will post pictures soon !
whee

one thought, one thought and one thought, getting clearer and more specific

wow i'm growing and expanding !
my brain is being exercised to write better and stick with one thought and developing an article that is more focused and written with clarity.

to be a writer that shares valuable information, i have to dig DEEEP and share things that are very personal

challenging but fun

it will be so rewarding when i get it and writing good articles becomes easy and effortless !!

You are doing a good job ! *pats back ! keep it up Shuyan !

only thin girls can be famous meh

why those famous bloggers all so thin one. born like that is it ? tsk max out the singlish some more can be popular queen. gosh.